I watched you
Pretending to myself
I was guiding you

I watched you
a sparkling diamond
shining on a desk of outer space
gentle

I watched you
appear
vaporized
crystalized
into the gentle diamond you were

And I saw you

I saw you
ride a surf that I thought lead somewhere
I saw you
swimming out over your head
I saw you
lovingly
melting, but I just couldn't admit it

Then I watched you
not as slowly as you appeared
vaporized
crystalized
Not as slowly as you had melted in the surf

I watched you
I pretended to myself I was searching

But I glanced away
just for a split second
and somehow
when I looked back
you had managed to disappear
into the Coast of Mesa

You were gone
Vaporized
Crystalized
Melted
Vanished